More of a Whimper than a Bang
Yeah okay I've got a lot of explaining to do, I'll keep it short but its still gonna be several pages.
For many reasons, some of which I won't even go into, I need to take a break from Caution Man. In order to find my focus, regroup, whatever.
How it used to be before is that there was a month or two break between episodes. I guess this can be considered one of those breaks but really right now I have no actors, no means of continuing the main story line and another semester of school coming up after which I'm going abroad and even if wasn't I don't think I could get the shoots done.
In complete honesty I'm tired of it. Tired of setting up shoots, I'm tired of working so hard just to get people to even be there. I guess I'm just kinda unlucky in picking the people who are in my productions. That's the reason of why my movie, chai, failed and organizing my play was mind-tearingly frustrating (though it failed for other reasons).
Let me make two things clear.
1) In that last paragraph I was not talking about Justin Evans. If anything recently I was that flaky shifty friend to Justin. Justin has always been on top of his shit and ready to do this. If everyone that I worked with was as awesome as him I would not only have a finished movie 3 episodes worth of caution man material in reserve but I would rule the world. I can't say this enough Justin has been nothing short of amazing. Justin this is my public apology. Sorry that this had to happen this way. I appreciate all your help along the way. Caution Man wouldn't even be a webcomic if it weren't for you. thank you.
2) I am not done with caution man forever. The main story is really what i wanted caution man to be about. The story I wrote I still think has a lot of integrity and I only wish the world could know where I was planning to take it from here. The thing is that I simply don't have the means of making more Caution Man episodes as I would like them to be. I guess we could do more pixel stuff and I could start some more side episodes with new cast members but rather than doing more of these pointless side episodes which never get finished nowadays anyway I'm just calling it off. It's not satisfying to make empty filler material when there is no real stuff coming anytime soon.
I feel spiritually sick with it all. I put a bit myself in my productions and some of the people I was working with let me down hard. and the combined weight of a string of failures, the latest being caution man is a little too much.
You give a friend a part you say its for fun and you make every concession to be flexible and take every pain onto yourself to make it easy and fun for them but then they stop returning your phone calls are always busy never can stay for the shoot start avoiding and you wonder how that person who you thought was friend could do that to you and can't even say to your face that they don't want to work with you anymore or even really talk to you anymore. It hurts a little but you move on and it happens again and again. there's a point when its enough and you gotta ditch it all. It sucks, you lose that piece of your soul you put into the work, the project itself, you lose the friendship, your sense of balance with the universe.
It's clear than I'm ranting now, I wrote this the morning after not sleeping all night (don't worry, its not cause of insomnia, just a late night with some buddies). I can't really express how i feel but you might get the jist by now.
by you I mean the fans who check this site regularly and sent in submissions, and sent emails begging for more updates. I"m sorry for letting you down and one day Caution Man will be back maybe with all new cast members. maybe in a new format. who knows but for now I hope you enjoyed the story I thought up almost 4 years ago and tried to share with the world.
Martin Skarzynski
April 2005